CARITAS♥

2011-02-13T15:01:00.003+08:00

Yet another week has passed, I always look back and tell myself, "Hey Caritas, you made it through another week!!! WELL DONE."

Yes I live on encouragement, nothing else gets me going. :) I especially love it when I have friends texting me randomly to just check and see how I'm doing for that week/day. I'd feel so encouraged, and that small text is enough to get me through the rest of the day. I hope everybody in the world gets this feeling of being encouraged and motivated to live through each and everyday. No matter how hard the struggle is, whatever giant obstacle that pops up, don't let it push you down. Keep looking up, you know that there's always someone there to support you. :>

Drifting back into my self proclaimed hiatus.

2011-02-02T17:57:00.004+08:00

Today was... Amazing. :)

Didn't really expected much to happen because today was dedicated mostly to the CNY celebrations. But God has truly blessed me with so many loving friends who are just so incredible, making my day nearly perfect!

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23

2011-01-23T20:37:00.005+08:00

I'll never forget each moment, the experience, every drop of blood and sweat, & the smiles. :)

We Dare, We Fight.

2011-01-22T22:47:00.006+08:00

A few takeaways from today:

1. I was reminded of God's unfailing might and power. He saw me through the long day which was both mentally and physically exhausting! He gave me the strength, energy, confidence, courage, endurance and willpower to push myself through each and every match. I knew for sure He was helping me especially when we entered the semi-finals. Our opponents were strong. Knowing that I wasn't all that fantastic at being a Goal Defender, I was easily discouraged whenever I made a mistake on court. But God was running with me each second, being my encourager.

"Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee." Deuteronomy 31:6

2. Throughout the entire week, I was being all worried and scared for today's matches as our main shooter and defender were injured thus leading me to think that we might not make it to the top 3 this year for Daisy Tan Carnival. However, working in His mysterious ways, the substitute shooter for Wenhui was actually good. Her shots were almost 90% accurate! Also, Shar was able to defend along side with me for nearly all the matches!!!! I was so thankful for that! God had answered my prayer as the team emerged top 3!! :>

"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

3. God's timing is always perfect. Though at times we may seem to doubt His perfect plans for us, yet, at the end of the day, things eventually unfold. & by the time we come to realize that all is well and meant to be, we would have committed a sin that we would later regret.

Thank God It's Friday

2011-01-21T16:57:00.004+08:00

I made it through the week. Feels like the truckload of burden I've been carrying has been lifted from my shoulders. All I could remember doing was the constant rush of completing assignments after assignments, above it all were the 4 tests I had! It's crazy just how the homework list can lengthen so rapidly through the course of the week. Everyday I'd be thinking which subject would I dare to sacrifice such that the consequence faced would be the least.

By Wednesday, I came to realise how weak my mental strength was. I came home, sat down and realised that I had myself on the line for every single lesson on Thursday. I think I reached my limit then, and like an elastic band, recoiled back into my pathetic comfort zone. Never had to take this kind of escape route before, but as of yesterday, I finally did. I suppose I've got a lot to work on, in terms of courage, mental strength and stamina. Not sure how my future Wednesdays-Thursdays will turn out. Ending each Wednesday at 9pm and only to reach home at 10pm-ish, with a predictable pile of due/overdue assignments + tests the following morning isn't very ideal for me!!

Maybe I'll runaway again? But maybe I'll learn to endure and persevere on.

Another event I distinctly recollect is the morning mad rush to school. Okay not that it's something new since the past 2 years were somewhat similar, but this year it's slightly different. Out of 5 days I had to do 4 x 100m sprint from bus stop to school! Okay I admit it's thrilling, the relief I get after crossing through the school gate when I make it on time. Hahahah, but still risky uh! Thank God I was not late a single day this week though! I've still got 2 lifelines before getting detention heh. ALRIGHT NEW GOAL: Cannot be late > 3 times until June!!!!

Finally, even though it's the end of the school week, hate to say this but I am still stressed out. Big day for me tomorrow. Big day for the team. It's really unfortunate that the team is already so small, but now we are down by 1 main shooter and 1 main defender. I have no clue on how tough it will be tomorrow, especially since my defending partner, Shar, might not play. Then it's left with me and prolly a substitute. I'm scared I will not be able to work with whoever the sub is cuz I'm really used to working with Shar on court! Ugh and we must get into the top 3 otherwise this batch will be letting all our previous Seniors down and we can't go for Achievers' Night! Frigging stressful, I guess all netballers will understand how precious each player is to the team. & I'm still praying, that by some miracle, Wenhui's ankle will heal by God's grace. Otherwise, Joy will be needing a substitute shooter partner as well! All this said, I'm still hoping God will help us and let us emerge top 3!!!!!

Well it's Friday, it's girls night out for me. Hopefully I'll destress tonight and just relax and focus on tomorrow's matches. Love & Other Drugs. :)

2011-01-18T22:01:00.003+08:00

Been so stressed out recently (yes it's only the second week of school), I just feel like hibernating in some cave until J2 is over or something. As for now, I am treasuring every single moment of free time I have before I hit full force!! Back to my personal mountain of homework! Need and must clear it otherwise my class buddy and I will get punished. :S

I love polaroids :>

2011-01-16T14:31:00.003+08:00

Today, I want to thank God for blessing my life with all the wonderful people that He has filled it with. & I know that this is one of the many and uncountable ways that He has shown His love and care for me! Amen.

2011-01-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day.

2011-01-09T16:23:00.009+08:00

This summarises my day!

You might think I'm not bulletproof, but I'm not.

2011-01-07T18:37:00.003+08:00

We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere. -- Tim McGraw

Woke up super early today, I think my head and body screamed at me to just ignore the alarm. But after my sinful act on Wednesday, I used all my good will power to drag my lazy self to school for training by 8:30AM!!!! Coach came late, so Joy called to ask what we should do first, but coach just said to wait for her! Woah then all of us started anticipating the most horrible training.

Court Work --> Gym --> PT --> Track.

Ended up doing Court Work!!! Threw what seemed like a million passes...... We ended with SUICIDES AND PT TOGETHER omggg I really wanted to die. One set consisted of TWO suicides consecutively and immediately after that had to do sit-ups/crunches.

At the end of training I am left with 2 blisters on my right foot & a heap of self disappointment! I still feel that I'm v weak and slow. Really don't want to let my team down but it is so hard.

When some of them wanted to play street netball first before coach came, then they wanted to tell her we warmed up already HAHAHA. Typical. ♥

Joy Team 1 & Joy Team 2 versus Caritas Team 1 & Caritas Team 2. (Since Cheuk Yiu & Yuxin were eating, we figured a 2 player game wouldn't work out, BUT a 4 player game whereby each of us controlled two players' cards would work out HAHAHAH.)

Check out all my property!!!!!!!!!!!! Hohohoho.
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What if I told you that I didn't want to study so freaking hard so I can get the ideal job that you've always wanted me to have?

2011-01-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand." :)

2011-01-06T01:57:00.005+08:00

Was so happy yesterday, I hope today will be the same. Decided to use pictures to summarize my Wednesday!

Got a pair of shoes from Lee Cooper's! I think I'm more or less prepared for school now. This sort of completes my whole Awesome Green Ninja look doncha think? D said I'd look like a tree (with my bag/file/pencil box etc.), & only she gets to say that!!! The rest of you, don't judge. :D If they don't allow me to wear this in school next week, I will surely cry a river for them.

Met D & E to celebrate their birthdayyyys! Looking forward to many more years of friendship! Shocked that J had to leave suddenly cuz of an emergency. Pray that she and her family will be okay... :(

This little girl reminds me of.. me.

My dad was so nice to me when I got home just now. So happy. ♥

2011-01-04T17:50:00.005+08:00

THIS HOUSE IS NOT A HOME.

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This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest
That made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure

So here's to everything, coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute
But I don't anymore

— Taylor Swift • Forever and Always —

This is not an emo postttt ok.

2011-01-04T14:42:00.004+08:00

Why must we keep harping on the same issues for so long? Not very healthy, in my opinion. Can't wait for that day, when we all sit down together and discuss this with maturity like the adults we are. No more small talk behind backs. Fair enough, I admit I have committed that crime, but I am still learning. Then I honestly hope that we come to a better and improved conclusion whereby the consensus will be glorifying to God.

To those who want to be bystanders, please I beg of you, to speak up. For in this case, your thought and word in this is valued. Finally, to those who showed support to us in one way or another, thank you.

Today I suddenly felt this small yearn to go back to school. Thought it would be a good distraction. But it's like running back to the very thing that I was running away from. Odd huh?

2011-01-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

First three days of the New Year was blissful without my parents!!!! I want more of such days! Unfortunately all good things come to an end. I know latching the door to prevent them from entering the house wouldn't do much good since I'd have to open it for them sooner or later. But worth the try right?

First week of the year is my last week of holidays. Sad to think of it but I'm definitely making the very best of it! Spent Monday at National Services Resort & Country Club @Tanah Merah with the Corinthians. Had a blast and omg how I missed them so much! All the crazy people were there & we just totally owned the place. Played twister with like 10 people it was darn funny!! After the BBQ we trailed off to the playground, played more games like Blind Mice, What Is the Time Mr Wolf & Pepsi Cola etc. All those kid games but OGLs never fail to make anything fun and interesting eh!!

Well had to leave early cuz I've got tuition in 10 hours which is really becoming a buzz kill! Not the first time that Chem tuition made me sacrifice my fixed plans. Still thinking if I should go back tomorrow since chalet only ends on Wednesday! So tempted to.

Ah, time to unlatch the door now. :(

2011-01-03T01:54:00.004+08:00

There's... something about you that pushes me away & yet something else that draws me in. So confusing sometimes because it just wrecks my mind. Hate getting close to certain people now, can't let & don't want history to repeat. So many times I think you're being foolish because she is everything you want and everything you can't have.

Oh &, don't make a girl fall for you if you have no intention of catching her.

Yepz this is how I think when my brain gets all messed up, and I have a sea of thoughts gushing about here and there. So hard to organise. Apologies, cuz I hate it when I'm like this as well.

2011-01-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

OH just realised something IMPORTANT! It is exactly ONE MORE MONTH until my birthday!!!! Hahahhaha, & my birthday is exactly one day before Chinese New Year!

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HAHAHAAH.

2011-01-02T23:12:00.003+08:00

My bestfriend once said to me, "Making mistakes are good. Mistakes are painful, but a collection of mistakes is an experience."

Did my reflection a couple of days back. It is amazing to realise and see how much God has worked in my life and through me. Wonderful to see His perfect will unfold, all the jigsaw pieces of my life come together at the end of the year. Ironically, I begin 2011 with 11 hands full of problems and issues left unresolved. But I know all will be well. It's all about how we view a certain task and then tackling it right? :)

I believe that no matter how clean a slate we start on each New Year, that white slate of yours will never be flawless. There is bound to have at least a few specks of dirt on it. Then it is up to us to polish it and ride on it through another year.

2010 was almost everything I wanted it to be.

How was 2010 for you?

What do you hope 2011 will be for you?

On a side note, I pray that I will learn to be more cautious and weary that I will not fall into the same trap again!!!! Can't afford to drown myself in that "thinking mode" again which honestly kills the brain cells I so dearly need, especially this year!

2010-09-30T23:17:00.003+08:00

Blair: Just because you’re dressed poorly doesn’t mean you’re not Chuck Bass.
Chuck: Why would I want to be him?
Blair: You should have told me you got shot.
Chuck: I’m surprised you didn’t shoot me yourself.
Blair: I have, many times, in my dreams, the good ones. But if you were really hurt I would want to know.
Chuck: When I woke up my ID was gone. Nobody knew who I was; nobody was coming to look for me. I realized that I might be alive but Chuck Bass doesn’t have to be.
Blair: Changing your name doesn’t change who you are.
Chuck: It’s a good start; a chance to live simply, earn people’s respect. Maybe, become a person someone could love.
Blair: Someone did love you. And… you owe it to her. And everyone else you’re leaving behind not to run away. Which is what you’re doing, and I don’t think that great man you’re talking about wanting to be is a coward. I think he would face up to what he did.
Chuck: I destroyed the only thing I’d ever loved.
Blair: I don’t love you anymore. But it takes more than even you to destroy a Blair Waldorf.
Chuck: Your world would be easier if I didn’t come back.
Blair: That’s true. But it wouldn’t be my world without you in it.

- Gossip Girl Season 4, Episode 2: Double Identity

2010-06-07T22:03:00.007+08:00

Wow. Never knew penning down my thoughts could be this challenging. My head just feels quite messy right now.

Second week into the June holidays already, it has been wonderful. Honestly, if I had a choice, I would probably want to live like that everyday. & it's not like I've been going out every single day to hang out with friends, but it also includes me studying! Yes, studying. Comparing this year with the last, I did not start studying THIS early for mid-years!! I like this consistency thing I've got going. :)

Just a quick summary about my first week:

Monday went over to D's place to study. Still getting myself into th studying mood. Was so tempted to join them for a manicure butttt I forced myself to complete the last math tutorial!

Tuesday camped out at Swirl's with B to yes - study. Two hours of studying and then two hours of four-in-row. Proved myself to be queen of four-in-row! :D Anyone up for a challenge?

Wednesday it was chemistry tutorial which started at 10am. I left my house at 10, so thinking I was prolly very late I cabbed down. The remaining 1.5 hours was just a bore and since I was quite sick everyone kept telling me I shouldn't have came down at all. There goes my twenty bucks!

Thursday I met E and we watched The Killers! AWESOME movie do catch it if you haven't! After which we studied over at the new Macs next to Cine! It was pretty conducive except for the bell which kept ringing and E was complaining about it. However thanks to my ipod it didn't really bother me haha.

Friday off to Sentosaaaaa for the seniors' farewell, gosh I missed that island! Haven't been there in like a few months!! Although I was still coughing and all it just felt great to be playing on the beach again.

Notice how my week comprises of a 3 day study and 2 day play regime? It's a new thing I'm trying in an attempt to have a consistent study schedule thing. Hopefully this ensures that I don't play until my brain officially rusts and I am unable to get back my focus for the mid-years. Yes I am treating this very seriously!

Right so today was supposedly a study day with T and L at T's place but omg we ended up watching videos on youtube and using facebook for the entire afternoon! Damn fail. Okay I know I just contradicted myself with being all serious about this regime thing...

Tomorrow, yes tomorrow I promise it will be better because I will be studying with J AND IT WILL BE PRODUCTIVE.

I've just come to realise that the rest my holidays until the third week have already been planned out. Like there isn't a single day that I will be cooped up at home. & that is a good sign because then I will not have the chance to use to computer and waste my time on Facebook or Twitter. Oh! I got a Twitter account very recently, like this afternoon! L created it for me because I was too lazy to. Then it took me TWO hours to decide on the stupid layout for my Twitter page. Yes that's one of the main reasons why I dislike keeping such social networks.

To end off, this is to P: you see, told you I'd post!!! Sorry for delaying I was really busy.

Oh and this is a song that I can currently relate to a lot.

2010-04-02T23:47:00.004+08:00

Don't tell me not to live, just sit and putter, life's candy and the sun's a ball of butter. Who told you you're allowed to rain on my parade! Something has changed within me, something is not the same; I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. It's time to try defying gravity, I think I'll try defying gravity, kiss me goodbye I am defying gravity. And you won't bring me down! So just call on me brother when you need a hand we all need somebody to lean on! I just might have a problem that you'll understand; we all need somebody to lean on! You don't know about my past, and I don't have a future figured out. And maybe this is going too fast. And maybe it's not meant to last, but what do you say to taking chances, what do you say to jumping off the edge? Never knowing if there's solid ground below, or hand to hold, or hell to pay. What do you say, what do you say? You with the sad eyes, don't be discouraged oh I realise it's hard to take courage in a world full of people you can lose sight of it all. And darkness still inside you make you feel so small, but I see your true colors, shinin' through I see your true colors. And that's why I love you, so don't be afraid to let them show your true colors. True colors are beautiful, like a rainbow. Show me a smile then, don't be unhappy, can't remember when I last saw you laughing. If this world makes you crazy and you've taken all you can bear, you call me up because you know I'll be there.

2010-03-25T20:19:00.005+08:00

I feel terrible & horrible when I make others disappointed or upset with me. This just makes me feel like crap each time and the feeling doesn't go away but lingers on for quite long. I really hate myself for being so careless and stupid. & unless I can make it up t the person again, I think I can never forgive myself. Then the question is, how can I make it up to them? Sometimes the answer is just so obvious, snap once and you know exactly what to do to make it right again. But when the answer isn't there...it just makes my brain go crazy! Searching for something that might or might not resolve the situation? I might just kill my brain cells having to continuously think about it day and night.

& that's 2 people in 6 days now.

O Lord please help me.

2010-02-27T00:21:00.003+08:00

My new favourite sentence:

"We always wonder why the other party can't share our perception of things."

This seems to be so so so true in my life this very moment.

2010-02-15T23:37:00.002+08:00

*naf held in His hands says:
remember, if you're going through hell, then just keep going
*naf held in His hands says:
there is always a light at the end of the tunnel
*naf held in His hands says:
hold on to God, because He will never ever forsake you
*naf held in His hands says:
and you will be okay
*naf held in His hands says:
everything will be okay
*naf held in His hands says:
you are loved, ctas!
♥CARITAS™ says:
yayyyyyyyyyyy
♥CARITAS™ says:
HAHAHAH
♥CARITAS™ says:
thank youuuu
*naf held in His hands says:
if theres anything you can always ask me okay!~~
♥CARITAS™ says:
okay thanks so muchhhhhh
♥CARITAS™ says:
haha you always cheer me up!
♥CARITAS™ says:
like remind me there's always someone there for me no matter what....
*naf held in His hands says:
there always is!!!
*naf held in His hands says:
and where i fail to be there for you
*naf held in His hands says:
God is there, alright?
*naf held in His hands says:
and He can do so much more than i ever can
*naf held in His hands says:
you are never alone

Thank you for reminding me how blessed I am. To have you, to have God. Love you my dear bffl! ♥

"#32 Enjoy the Little Things" :)

2010-02-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

So I end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real
If I just breathe
Let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright

2010-02-08T20:35:00.006+08:00

I really don't know how to put this. If I stay and persevere on, I really do not want to regret it. But then, all these doubts just keep clouding my head like an endless sky. I don't want to be seen as a weakling, running away and not mustering up the courage to face all this, but that yearn to just escape and find peace in my mind is just so tempting.

How do I solve a problem that seem to pull me in two directions? Oh Lord, I honestly need Your guidance right now. Please please show me the path I should take, whichever it is, I will follow it. Just get me out of this situation.

I'm really thankful to have friends when I really need them. Truthfully, if you two didn't come & sit with me today, I wouldn't know what would become of me. So thank you, thank you.

Oh yet once again, another dilemma. I need that tonne of Courage.

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Life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe.

2010-01-12T20:32:00.004+08:00

This, is Sam Tsui. He is (everything fantastically amazing that you can think of goes here). After you watch this you'll want to watch all the rest of his videos, which were produced by Kurt Schneider. :)

♥

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Standing at the portal of the opening year,
Words of comfort meet us,
Hushing every fear; Spoken thro' the silence by our Father's voice,
Tender, strong and faithful, making us rejoice.

He will never fail us, He will not forsake;
His eternal cov'nant, He will never break.
Resting on His promise, what have we to fear?
God is all sufficient, for the coming year.

Onward, then, and fear not, Children of the day;
For His Word shall never, never pass away.

2009-12-10T08:09:00.005+08:00

This is for D & E!

Hmm well what can I say? I've never dedicated such a song before but I think you guys deserve it! Plus I thought the title made it appropriate! :D Hope you both will enjoy. :)

"Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other"

Happy 6th month guys!

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Two things I should be proud of:

1. Woke up at 5am today

2. Ran 10 rounds in Hougang Stadium = 4km

Doesn't sound much but considering the fact that I haven't been training for th past 2 weeks...this makes me feel like a CHAMPION. Muahahhaah. So now I'm not worried about tomorrow's training!

Yeah I know I'm supposed to update about my Aussie Trip butttttttt I'm pretty lazy to do so. 2 whole weeks there I don't think I'd be able to post out the details.. but I'll try! So as far as I can remember, we arrived in Perth International Airport and travelled down the west coast of Australia towards south. We visited most of the major and minor towns there where we saw mostly scenery, sunsets and....FLIES. Hell yeah there were flies. Surprisingly I know many would say touring Aussie meant seeing SOME kangaroos or koalas but we didn't see a single one. But flies? UNCOUNTABLE. My brother and I are now official experts on fly swatting.

First night we stayed at Aunty PL & Uncle K's house in Fremantle. They were really generous and hospitable. I honestly did not know I had relatives in Aussie until sometime before whilst preparing for the trip! Visited the Fremantle Prison which was really really awesome. Never thought I would step into a real prison in my lifetime but hey opportunity came! The prison actually closed down in 1991 and then used as a tourist attraction. Did the "Doing Time Tour" where we got to explore the prison and view life as it was for both convicts and prisoners. Saw the whipping post, gallows and solitary cells as well. Really a recent system of punishment!

I guess the real adventure really started on the 4th day when we picked up the caravan. Quite spacious I must say but during the night it gets tight when the beds are made. Each night we camped at a caravan camp site where we could charge the batteries and refill our water supply. A good thing is that there's a fridge 24/7 so I get to grab a cold drink/snack. OH and then I can wash my hands as and when I want to haha! :D

Alright so we made our way down towards Mandurah and later Bunbury. We visited the Dolphin Discovery Centre in Bunbury where I saw wild bottlenose dolphins! Saw those dolphins surfing the waves and even jump in and out of the water. According to the guide he said "dolphins like to show off" hehehe. Next town was Busselton where the main attraction we headed for was the Busselton Jetty. It is supposedly 1841 metres long and with a railway line to bring people to and back from the end of the Jetty. Sadly, due to a fire most of the jetty was under renovation.

Dunsborough was the next town, main attractions were Cape Naturaliste Lighthouse & Ngilgi Cave. If you're wondering, "Ngilgi" is pronounced as "Nil-gi" where the first "g" is silent. Took me a few attempts before my mom corrected me. Breathtaking panoramic views of the Indian Ocean and the Geographe Bay coastline could be seen from the top balcony of Cape Naturaliste Lighthouse. Amazingly we saw humpback whales as well off the coast of the Indian Ocean! Really a rare sight. Ngilgi Cave was really fun. There were stunning views of stalactite, stalagmite, helicitite(new word!) and shawl(new word!) formations.

Drove further down southwest towards Margaret River. Along the way we stopped at Simmo's, an ice cream company that was a MUST TRY. Really delicious and fresh. Oh I forgot t mention, there were a lot of country side views, with farms and cattle (e.g. cows). So I suppose that's how they are able to make fresh ice cream! Another stop-along-the-way was the Magaret River Chocolate Factory which obviously sold chocolates all freshly made! Needless to say we kinda splurged a little bit on chocolates! :D Still, we've brought back limited amounts and I've been having tough decisions on who to give them to... :D

With only 3 days left we rushed towards Pemberton. Not much there, but I do remember visiting more farms which grew lavender. Ah but best part there was climbing the Gloucester Tree! It was an old fire lookout in 1947, but now open to the public. It's 75 metres!! & YES I CLIMBED IT. Of course it was pegged! I got almost breathless when I reached the top. BUT IT WAS ALL WORTH IT! The view was...BREATHTAKING. Hahhahah. Spectacular views of the Karri forest could be seen!

The itinerary for us was to go all the way to Albany, but unfortunately time did not permit us. Had to use the last 2 days to travel all the way back up to Perth. The last night stay in our caravan was in Collie. The drive up was crazy. Drove through like 15 towns in total. We took a different route as compared to the one we took at the beginning. Last geographical attraction was the waterfall at Serpentine. Wasn't impressive to me, quite disappointing actually. But hey what can you expect when the entrance fee was only 10 dollars per vehicle? Hahah.

Back in Fremantle, we visited Aunty PL & Uncle K again. They brought us to the main SHOPPING MALL which was a highlight for me. :) Their mall is like crazily huge. It's like Vivo I think. Or maybe bigger. Whatever but I got my shopping experience. :D Yeah and I think that's about it for the Aussie Trip! Looks like a lot to tell here but trust me its only what I could summarise! Next time when I come back to read this I can reminisce the highlights at the least. :)

Okay no pictures here, I might consider uploading them on Facebook. I think it would be more convenient, that's if I do get round to the pictures. :) Now that this is done, my day is about to get all fantastic. TLC meeting in a couple of hours, we're catching Christmas Carol! Oh and L and I are gna get our pedi and manicures. :D Tomorrow and the day after will be just as brilliant. I don't think I would be spending much of my December at home heh.

Ciao.

2009-11-19T21:36:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since this space was filled. I guess it came to that point of time when I figured recording my life here would be the least of my priorities. Everyday just zipped by leaving me wanting time to slow down. Look, we've reached November. My life is about to take a huge turn, a big change, a fresh start. Honestly, I don't want to leave the new friends I've made after all we've worked so hard for. Well yes I guess we'll see each other in school. But how often? Will it be the same? Can the friendships remain where they are now? Doubts.

They say people come and go. Well I hate that phrase.

So tomorrow shall be the last day I get to have formal lessons with S01 as a class. I guess I'll miss you guys. But I'm worried for you, whether y'all can cope with the crazy upcoming year. Then again, I have faith and trust that all of you will put in your best effort to ensure that you will perform up to the standard S01 has. You will face struggles, but I sincerely believe that each one of you have the potential to run your race. So keep pushing yourself, you have my support!

Now as November comes to a close and the holidays begin, I'm mentally preparing myself for all the upcoming...holiday happenings. I did not expect my holidays to be completely packed like sausages in a can but it's true. Highlights for me would be QQN's birthday dinner (with S01!), family trip to Australia, YF camp, relative trip to Pulai Springs, Netball Chalet, OGL camp and finally Class Chalet. I haven't even factored in all the trainings/movie marathons/catch-ups. Moreover my mom wants me to start revising my Geog inbetween my free days. I guess those days would be the least.

I predict this space would be more lively then!

Acceptance & Thankfulness

2009-11-12T23:56:00.004+08:00

Then this is how it ends and I'm alright with it. You're never going to see me cry, cause I've cried. I'll be okay, there's nothing you can do to me, that's ever gonna bury me. Out on the street, I'm fearless. If this is how it hurts it couldn't get much worse. If this is how it feels to fall, then that's the way it is. We live with what we miss, we learn to build another wall till it falls. Better believe I'm fearless, fearless.

I will make the best of it.

2009-08-23T15:57:00.002+08:00

Maybe this whole thing was just my fault. I screwed it up, okay? Everything that happened was because of me. Is it my fault too that I suck at life?

2009-07-30T22:46:00.001+08:00

- LIFE SUCKS when you have HIGH EQ. says:
LIFE SUCKS
♥CARITAS™ت says:
agreed. but i'm trying to stay positive. although it's getting harder everyday.
The army person who came to give a talk in school yesterday said, "No matter how hard it gets, there is always an end."

Yes I do hope this ends.

2009-07-28T22:53:00.002+08:00

"Today I felt inexplicably happy.
Truly madly deeply.
I really hope it'll stay this way, I'm tired of having t pretend I'm happy when I'm not really."

How I wish I could say the same.

2009-07-20T22:56:00.003+08:00

Had a shock when I stepped into my brother's room and saw this:

If you haven't realised what they are, they are notes, tied to a string that's across the room & just above his bed. Plus there are more notes neatly stuck along the wall too.

Think he's trying to prove that he is more hardworking than me for 'O's.

Think he's trying to get his single digit score.

Think he will.

2009-07-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

Psalm 116:7 "Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee."

As we go through the busy mid-end year period, let us keep this verse so very close to our hearts. While many things may clamour for our attention, & too many things seem to happen at once, deadlines approach & time passes too fast, let's remember this comforting truth: we have rest in God. God gives us His peace in the midst of the storm, & He reassures us with memories of His goodness past, & promise of His goodness to us now & forever. Let us remember His blessings & take comfort that He's always watching over us, taking care of us, guiding us, & He is always the same.

Thanks Jo for today's QT.

Breaking news: My foot has become disgustingly f a t. It's like swollen plus there's water retension. Sprained it yesterday during Pesta Sukan. I was super sad I had to stop playing after my 3rd game. Bad timing, really really bad. I don't know how I'm gna survive school tomorrow. I'm thinking I'm going to be late for every single lesson, considering it's homeroom system. Btw, with the bandage, my right foot is like almost twice the size of my left. It's ridonkulous.

I really hope it heals, fastttt.

2009-07-09T22:12:00.012+08:00

Reliving those beautiful times. I felt so happy when I walked through those welcoming green gates. Taking in the school's buildings, structure, familiarity flooding back. Then we started on our walk down memory lane.

Toilet mirror shots. How many times have our vanity gotten the best of us?

E & I climbed those long flights of steps to the 4th floor where the old 4GRace '08 classroom used to be. It belongs to 4DiliGence '09 now. Wrote "love" notes to them. :) We found the 4GRace '09 classroom which used to belong to 4DiliGence '08. Funny they swapped the classrooms!

Brown wooden bench just outside the classrooms!

E's old seat!! Look at how she's so relaxed. She felt "really nice warm and fuzzy" as quoted from her FB comment hahah!

The 1 out of the 8 fans we have in class! :D Never ever felt warm, unless of course it was during Ms Sie's literature classes. :/

10 minute breaks ahhhh hotdogs, nuggets, onion rings, chips, cookies, doughnuts, biscuits, snacks & truckloads of fooood ♥

My seat! I was the all time window girl. Opening/closing windows every single day without fail. I loved my job though, cuz it's a guaranteed first class seat next to the windows (duh) where you enjoy awesome first class winds. :)

The swings. I remember the time when we were so sick of studying during the study camp, we left everything and strolled to the swing, having our 3 hour talk.

The level 4 gallery. Painted our Toyhouse #666 banners and shirts there!! Thought I saw faint paint stains on the floor. :D

I never realised how pretty the track was until today? It's like so well maintained as compared to other schools. Plus the grass is so well trimmed it looks like carpet grass here.

Favourite recess spot for the 7ofus!

Reminiscing today, I could never forget my time, experience & memories I have of SCGS. How could I not go back again? Time permit, I promise I will. ♥

2009-07-08T21:45:00.003+08:00

Parents.

How do you love your child? How do you care for them? How do you express your concerns?
Emotions, mixed feelings, racing through.

When exams end, you give your child a break. Not tell them to "Go and study" or "Don't you have homework to do?" OR "Go to bed now since you have nothing to do". Which part of "I need to relax just for a few days" do you not understand? I don't understand you. I really don't.
Emotions, mixed feelings, racing through.

Why don't you try this, "How was your chinese oral today?" Nope, I didn't hear that. I only heard crappy lines and more ridonkulous nonsense like "You can do whatever you want on the computer when you are confident in all your tests and score above 90%". Sir, Ma'am, we live in a different era now, an era much much different than your days where marks like those were perhaps common for average kids like me. No, it is 2009 and I am not in Primary school anymore where flying grades drop at your feet.
Emotions, mixed feelings...

Oh couldn't I make it any clearer? Just give me a break.

2009-07-07T21:49:00.003+08:00

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Before I lose it get composure...

A quarter of my JC life is now officially over it's like a whirlwind of fun and madness. Mid-years are also behind me now I am so thankful for that. It reminds me how we didn't have mid-years back in SC, something we all loved. But now I guess I couldn't run away from it. Looking forward, my A-level chinese oral is tomorrow. I am mighty nervous & scared. This is the first time I feel so unprepared for such a major exam. For chinese Os I was much more confident. But right now, is it too late? Only God knows.

...I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Ladies never lose composure.

2009-06-19T14:13:00.003+08:00

So many things happened in the past 2 months I really cannot reiterate them here. I guess it has just been so crazy, that I can only return home each day tired and lethargic, get some rest before a new day begins.

"Days passing by like nobody's business. In ~~2weeks~~1 week's time, the june holidays will be over. ...Though as much as I want to slow down the time from slipping away from my hands, I must say this is just life, sometimes things are just meant to be this way..."

That coming from Jocelyn, it really is true. I want things to slow down just for a little bit, for me to catch up with the ferocity and rush of life, but how will that be possible? Church camp this week went by in a haze, I'm back here again dragged back into reality. It was good break I felt, the messages refreshing, teaching on how we should set our affections on things above. On wednesday night, I had a really bad tummy ache. I was mighty afraid it'd turn out to be some infection again, but thank God it all but recovered the next day. On tuesday, my phone decided to break down again. Most of my data is gone, my parents are not willing to buy me a new phone and I'm really frustrated.

So many times I have no heart to do the things I should be doing. Mid years in a week, and I'm still running from it. I feel as though everything is overflowing one another, all so messy and unorganised. Where are my priorities? I really suck at this.

"How does it feel to be an all rounder?" - J.

Am I to take joy in my infirmities?

2009-04-23T22:04:00.002+08:00

"It's so easy to get tired and frustrated isn't it? By the end of each day I feel like I went through war... which is kinda true."

2009-04-18T21:14:00.003+08:00

I hate it when I'm told to do something I don't feel like doing I hate it when I'm being nagged on and on and ON I hate it when someone says I've not been doing what I should've been doing when CLEARLY I've been trying my VERY BEST already and yet they insist that it's not been done I hate it when you say all those things ACCUSINGLY when in the first place you don't even know the TRUTH can't you see I'm so frigging stressed out already stop STOP pushing me stop accusing me of the things that I am NOT and STOP PISSING ME OFF EVERYTIME can't you see that you always make me shed tears of hurt and hatred so STOP FORCING ME already this is the way things are JUST ACCEPT IT and start understanding who I am because I have my own way of doing things.

Btw, you are NOT helping me at all. Save your breath.

2009-04-13T22:00:00.008+08:00

Just sifting through my old pictures. I wonder if these moments will ever happen again.

Heheehee this picture made me laugh! Miss those timessssss.

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I was supposed to say something about Ashmin. So here goes.

Quote:

"LOL PATRICK(the starfish) IS RETARDEDLY FUNNY says:
IM HUMOUR WITS AND EVERYTHING GOOD IN A PEA!"

2009-04-13T20:46:00.007+08:00

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

2009-04-07T20:41:00.003+08:00

Life is so uncertain, and yet Death is so certain.

2009-04-05T00:04:00.005+08:00

When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
It's been so long now
You've forgotten how to smile.
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have
Better things to do.

When your down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When your down and lost
Along the way,
Try a little harder
Try your best to make it
Through the day,
Oh, just tell yourself
Ah, I'll be OK
.
.
.
I never really knew you. But..
I'll still miss you v v much.
At least now I know you're in a much better place.
♥

2009-04-02T21:10:00.005+08:00

Meet Kendric. He's deep fried, he's dried AND he's a boneless chicken. OH and he knows how to make paper stars. He's the awesome KendricFriedCruelty.

(omg Ashmin I can't stop laughing HAHAHAAHHAHA! & ITS NOT EVEN 12AM YET!!)

2009-04-02T19:59:00.004+08:00

I'M SO HAPPY I COMPLETED MY FIRST PI DRAFT HAHAHAHAH I TOTALLY OWNED IT. It took me TWO nights to complete, causing me to be unable to complete almost all my other subjects. BUT I'M DONE AND I'M NOT GNA BE DOING PI FOR THE NEXT TEN DAYS AWESOME. :D

I am so dreading tomorrow's GP lesson. I knew she would call me to be a speaker. I was bound to be called. I hate debates; I hate them because I suck at them. I hate them because they make me nervous. I hate them because I'm scared I won't be able to carry out the arguments and whatever evaluation )`+*&^. After today's lesson I think I'm gna have a nervous breakdown tomorrow when it is my turn. O Lord please help me.

About 4 more hours until 12am. I think I'm gna have my 3rd laughing fit with Ashmin & Kendric for the 3rd night in a row.

2009-04-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

BELPHEGOR BELPHEGOR BELPHEGOR!!! KYAAA says:
kendric~ says (12:18 AM):
*when u step on the dustbin paddle, the implication is tt it will whack ashmin's head and hiliary will faint due to the grusome sight of brain matter
BELPHEGOR BELPHEGOR BELPHEGOR!!! KYAAA says (12:20 AM):
*HAHAHA WTH
*when U step on the dustbin paddle
*the implication is that it will whack ur head but hilary wont respond because there wont be any sight of brain matter
BELPHEGOR BELPHEGOR BELPHEGOR!!! KYAAA says:
LOL
❤CARITAS™ت says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH OMG

2009-03-27T22:00:00.003+08:00

Happy Blessed 17th Birthday to Timo & Joanne!

To you two birthday babies this week; Hope you guys enjoyed having us celebrate your birthdays that night! & may you guys continue to love God and grow closer to Him with each day. Thank God for awesome friends like you too. :)

& Presenting the Birthday Babiesssssss:)

I think I have chocolate cake stuck between my teeth. :/

♥

I miss my SCfriends. :( It's been forever since I saw Elyn/Jocelyn/4GR....etc. I miss SCfood too. I want to buy the cheap handroll from the Jap stall. I want to buy my fresh apple from the Snacks stall. When when when can I go back to SC? It seems impossible for me to meet up with them. With this crazy timetable, I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to see any of you soon. I don't even see Daph in school much. Daph I hope we can at least continue to meet up in the morning before flag raising although it may only be 5 - 10 minutes. Darn how I wish I could come earlier, then we could talk. I need to talk to someone I know, someone who knows me. Someone from SC.

Plus point, I met Jea today! :) Was actually darn excited to see her. Just so happened both of us were going home at the same time, hence the impromptu meet up. As I walked through the underpass to AMKhub, memories started flooding my mind. Met Jea & we got bubbletea from EachACup, more memories. We practically walked up and down AMKhub talking, since we didn't know where to sit(I know, after all these years). There was too little time, because before I knew it, I was alighting from her dad's car below my block. But it's this feeling I get, a warm feeling after meeting someone I knew for a long time.

So okay today was.. sweltering. Yeah humid, sticky and hotttt. Disgusting weather made my uniform itchy against my body by Bio Practical. It got worse when the whole lab started having the Bunsen burners turned on with the fans off. The 5 food tests caused us to miss break, giving me my first hunger pang during school hours this year.

Looking forward to tmr, perhaps I'd be more focused and can continue clearing up the homework pile, the reason why I hate school. But really, school's great. Just saw flashes of lightning, followed by the rumbling thunder. Perfect timing.

2009-03-20T20:02:00.013+08:00

Okay so I've finally found time to do this. I can't recall most of my life events in the past couple of weeks because everyday goes by majorly fast. However I think I could just skim by the highlights!

Jason Mraz is one thing I'll definitely remember. 5th of March - absolute fun and a good getaway from everything. A night for me to catch up with Elyn too! :) Missed her loads, we had tonnes to talk about, but of course there wasn't enough time. I hope our Saturday plans will work out! Okay anyway as expected I loved JM's singing and the whole concert. He was awesome live. A pity he sang some songs from his old album though. Overall, I had an fantastic time! :D

I think this shot has a cool effect!

We had the side seats! So it was kinda hard to take front shots. Anyway we didn't even sit at all. When he came onto stage Elyn and I practically ran to the railing and stood there for the entire thing. Hahahha plus the view was so much better too.

The day when Hannah & I went to visit ACJC! Met Lailing, Dewi, Joanna, Zihan, Qianning plus other SC friends whom I can't remember haha. It was really great to see familiar faces again. I shall go back and visit again! Oh Dewi & I exchanged school badges. So now I have an AC badge hhahahah. But doubt I'll wear it.. ohwell souvenir!

Feb/March Birthday celebration! :)

Doesn't it look good? It tasted really good too. :D

Feb/March babies!

Hello Asst. Class Manager :D

This was during Bio Pract 2! I had my make-up pract lesson on Wednesday. Nearly gave up on all the microscope related calculations. But thank God I completed it in an hour and could finally join the class at the cafe for pizza. Thanks you guys for waiting for me. :D

Later the class went somewhere (I forgot the location) to bowl. Inititally we wanted to play Laser Quest but the area was used by a kids' party. There'll be a next time!

Right I'm gna end here. The GP, Chinese & Econs pile is starting to overwhelm me.

2009-03-03T19:27:00.005+08:00

The weather was absolutely fantastic today! It became extremely cooling during Bio, and then it started drizzling. If everyday were like that, I think I'll have the best learning environment ever. Then I'd be able to focus and pay attention during each lesson, esp. GP.

These 2 days by far have been manageable. Now I just need to climb over my mountain of homework and I’d be running along just fine. I think I’m struggling with Chemistry – again. I really need a tuition teacher. Anyone who knows of a good & reasonable priced tuition for Chemistry pleaseeeeee be so kind as to let me know! Oh during Bio, Mr. W said I might have to come back during the March hols for a make-up practical since I missed Pract.2. The detriments of falling sick!

I can’t do any form of exercise this week. ): That’s just really sucky for me. I’m like already missing the first 2 training sessions. Plus plus there was some bonding session thing last Wed. ): Ms L called me this afternoon when I was walking to the bus stop. Said the merit sports people have to attend some sports talk tmr. I hope it will be interesting. :D

So my aim today is to complete Bio Tutorial 2, Econs Tutorial 1 & prolly squeeze in some GP info that Mrs. R said she’d test us on during the next tutorial. Oh Lord please help me.

COUNTDOWN: 2 days until Jason Mrazzzzzzz! :D:D:D

Random pictures of the day!:

Debs & Kendric :)

Debs & Hilary :)

JocelynnnnnnnnTng! I miss you bestfriend!! :(

♥

2009-02-27T23:14:00.009+08:00

Thank God I'm home, finally.

My week at TanTockSengHospital was just really lousy if you ask me. Never in my life will I ever want to be admitted to hospital again!! When I was younger I always wanted to have an experience in a hospital. I thought being a patient there was cool and everything, having the nurses tend to you and stuff, but this is so not true! It totally sucks to be sick! Hahhaha believe me! Anyway, I was down with Colitis, a veryyyyyyyy terrible disease. Maybe I'm exaggerating, but the PAIN can be unbearable sometimes. At the start of my illness, it got so bad I couldn't move/walk/talk. It took so much energy for me to get around.

Anyhow, my stay at the hospital was.. boring. Seriously, I just lie in bed the whole flippin' day, I keep thinking to myself about the hundred and one things that I should/could have been doing at that moment. Every passing day was really sad. The only activities that went on around me were having some nurse coming to take my blood pressure/temperature every hour or smth, blood test and giving me medication. Tuesday & Wednesday were my worst days. That's because I WASN'T ALLOWED TO EAT OR DRINK A SINGLE THING AT ALL. I was put on drip, I could only taste water, but I couldn't sip it. :(

But I couldn't have made it through the week if it wasn't for the people who came to visit me! The most important person is my mom. She came every single day. She took leave on the first few days to stay & accompany me at the hospital for the whole day. Without her I guess I would be unable to do alot. Thank God I have someone like her. Dad came everynight, thank God for him too. :D The next lot are the wonderful people who came too!

Thank you: Elyn, Tammie, Hannah(she's my best visitor after mom, she came like everyday since wednesday), Ernest, Debbs, Enzhao, Gid, San, SC, Josie(there your name is bolded), Wes, Ann anddd all my aunts. :D Those whom I missed out I'd like to thank you too! Cuz no one can go through hospital life without friends. :D

However I cannot express my how thankful I am to God Himself, who was the one with me 24/7. The one who comforted me, loved me, protected me & healed me with His almighty hands. He saw me through the week, leading and guiding each step of my road to recovery. He is just so awesome, someone whom I can fully trust, & to place my life in His hands. I really praise and thank Him for healing me! :)

2009-02-15T20:29:00.014+08:00

STELLAR EVOLUTION '09

09S01

Chop Chilli Chop Chilli Chop Chop Chop!

Mass dance pract.!
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Station Games!

JUMP SHOT!

Our lovely OGLs, Yoges & Judy! :D

Ah I love this shot it's really pretty:)

Sam, Shahila & Hilary

Our circle shot!

LEO'S CLAN IDENTITY! QUACKKK.

LEO'S CLAN FLAG :D

This is when PJC set a record in the Singapore Book of Records for the largest school logo, celebrating PJC's 10th anniversary. It was this large container filled with about 90,000 paper stars folded by Pioneers! :D

I think it was some toasting competition?! Cygnus VS. Leo!

Cygnus: Toast of the otahs

Leo: Toast of our drinks

Cygnus: Toast of the plates

Leo: Toast of our DUCKS!

And then SCHOOL TOAST! :D

09S01 - dinner on the last night of orientation!

During the dance competition!

Last class photo of the day!

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Alright so that was my dose of picture overload! The rest are on Facebook actually. Orientation was the ultimate blast!! I loved almost every part of it! :D I'm starting to love 09S01 too. :D I hope my class will form a strong bond over th next 2 years.

I loved mass dance! We had a 3 hour dance lesson on thursday. Although it was tiring it was major fun as well. Kendric was my dance pard! He's not bad for a dance pard, I had fun practising with him. After that it was station games! = more fun! Most of it were water gamesss which were totally exciting. Leo won for Station Games! :)

Fridayyyyyyy was the last day. :( Everyone just got REALLY high and was filled with exuberance. The atmosphere just got better and crazier, especially at night. While waiting to eat, all the clans just kept cheering and toasting and singing and laughing. After dinner, it was the dance competition between the clans! AND THEN MASS DANCE. ♥♥ When the music started playing everyone ran outside to the courtyard and started jumping. I think everyone forgot their dance moves!? It was super hyped-up & I had TONNES of fun! I WANNA BE AN OGL NEXT YEAR SO I CAN EXPERIENCE ORIENTATION AGAIN!!! :D

So school officially starts tmr, with real tutorials and all. Someone shoot me I haven't done most of my tutorials... WHAT A BAD WAY TO START SCHOOL. :( Okay I'm gna ATTEMPT my Chem tutorial, you know how much I suck at Chem.

2009-02-06T22:50:00.003+08:00

THREE THINGS THAT MADE ME V V HAPPY TODAY:

#ONE: I got my first choice for my subject combi!! :D So I'll be taking H2 Bio, Chem, Math and H1 Econs.

#TWO: I GOT ACCEPTED INTO PJ'S NETBALL TEAM YAY YAY YAYYY. I totally didn't expect to get the text message this morning..?! Since because there was a round 2 for trials today so I thought they would only make the selections over the weekend. But thank God for the early acceptance. No regrets staying in PJ now! :)

#THREE: I can't say it here. But this made me even happier. :D

2009-02-04T21:04:00.005+08:00

Firstly, I'd like to thank every single person who wished me on my birthday! Thank you guys so much, I'm really glad you remembered my b'day! Thank you also to the wonderful people who gave me presents! & thanks Daph for accompanying me on my birthday, for the treat at MinistryOfFood & the discount for my school bag. :D

So I'm officially out of my dilemma now! I will stay in PJ. :) After much thought and prayer, I realised that PJ actually does offer me a lot of things which will be beneficial. Moreover, with each day that passes, I am starting to like PJ because of the new environment, people and just about everything else! Plus point, I'm joining netball again. That's because I found out that PJ's netball is actually quite strong, which means I will get a chance to participate in competitions and stuff.

Anyway today was rather boring, with all the talks and introductory lectures. But then things got better during the 2 hour netball trials. I finally got to have my adrenaline rush, as well as that wonderful feeling of being able to play in a game again. That being said, I guess I can say that I still love netball. So I really hope to receive a text message over the weekend or see my name on the notice board next monday telling me that I got accepted.

Mass lectures and CCA trials start tmr, it's gna be a long day.

2009-01-30T23:23:00.003+08:00

I thought the text was gna come at 8am!! But it came like one hour earlier. Anyway I guess I'm quite happy with my posting results! & If my appeal to CJC doesn't get through, then I'll have to get used to the one hour journey to CCK. :/

Today was a long day! Elyn and I cabbed from CJC to Cine, catching Bride Wars with TOFUS minus Jocelyn and Jiayin. I think I almost teared at the last part - it was sad! Later in the evening when the rest left Lishen came along and Elyn & I brought him to watch Inkheart!! I love that show it's great. I have this thing for fantasy movies. :) Dinner was at Gelare! Awesome food but now I srsly srsly srsly gotta hit the tracks.

SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY I'm excited + scared + happy + sad.

# Excited because.. I was really looking forward to my JC life like since forever! I really needed a new environment and change from the past.

# Scared because.. of the whole new environment!! I know this sounds totally ironic but hey it is something new! I've been in SC for like 10 years, so the thought of finally getting into a new school can be nerve wracking sometimes. Plus I gotta admit I suck at making new friends & I like having a save zone around me... Now you know my flaw pls don't go around spreading thanks.

# Happy because.. I'll be another year older. :) (I know most people will be like "who wants t be older?" but I don't wanna stay too young hah!)

# Sad because.. SCHOOL STARTS ON MY BIRTHDAY!? Who wouldn't be?! New school = don't know anyone = no one will know it's my birthday... you get my point.

LOVE THIS GUY TO THE MAX. :):) He's my new hero, role model and inspiration! Hehhe :D

2009-01-30T01:11:00.002+08:00

Am I the only one who is fretting over that sms?!

Someone tell me that's not so.

{6 hours 40 minutes}

2009-01-23T18:48:00.002+08:00

There was a dust war in my house today.

And I conquered it. >:D

Kind of a bummer that I missed out on a lot of things that happened today though. :(

2009-01-20T23:00:00.003+08:00

These two days have been fannntastic!

In summary, on Monday it was Changeling, Elyn's place, OneTreeHill, running, stayover. Then for today there was Waffletown, Wii HSM Dance-Along (I rock at thisssssss!!:D I managed to unlock all the songs for Junior Level, I'm gna unlock the Senior Level next time!), OneTreeHill, running. Oh before Waffletown, Elyn & I got to bring Lishen and Jonas to their kindergarten at Newton Life Church! I love those kids srsly they're just adorable.

Posting will be out in 10 days? This can be nerve wracking sometimes y'know. It's just, I really don't wanna get posted to my last few choices.

2009-01-16T23:12:00.006+08:00

Why do relationships seem to be so frigging hard?

& at times they even look frightening.

Maybe it's just me not being able to understand or to

even know what it's about.

Dang, srsly.

D, you don't know how many times I've felt so

frustrated and unhappy for you.

But I just need you to know that whatever you do, try not to let your actions hurt others. It's just not right. But you know that I'll support you for sure, as long as you're happy!

2009-01-15T19:09:00.007+08:00

Do we look retarded or what?! This was yesterday when the 3 of us caught Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus 3D at the theatres. We like totally had the whole theatre to ourselves hahaha it was really deserted except for several kids... which reminds me of that Winxclub day - okay I really don't need to recap about the whole experience hah. Ashley and Shannen joined us after that for SAJC openhouse! I got to see old friends again :)

This afternoon I made my way to Dhoby Ghaut thinking it was just late lunch with Ernest and Hannah. But guess what when we were in PS Huixian suddenly popped out of no where with a box of cake in her hand! Hahahah I was super surprised. I really did not see that coming you guys! Anyway thanks so much for the birthday surprise although its pretty earrrly. I'm just glad that you guys wanna celebrate my 17th with me. I know that with your busy schedules it's kinda hard to meet and stuff but yup I do prefer an early birthday as compared to a late one! Hahahah. Also I really loooooved the StrawberryShortcake it was deliciousss thank you! OH thanks for the lunch treat at the TheIndulge toooo ahahah I enjoyed my lunch!! I owe you guys really superb birthdays now esp. for the two who will be having their sweet sixteen this year! :) Thank you again I love you guys loads! :) ♥

So tonight I'll be finally submitting the JAE choices and when I do, there'll be no turning back. I really hope I get into the school of my choice. Reallly realllly hope that I do.

2009-01-13T21:57:00.003+08:00

I just watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. It really was an excellent movie, I really liked the storyline. Of course Brad Pitt played his role very well.

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I didn't know it would be this hard on deciding what JC to go to. Every choice I have has a flaw. For one, I did not make it for the cut off point. Because my score has left me hanging in the middle, I either missed several JCs cut off points or those that I could get into, were too far away. So now I'm left with not many options, out of which these options are not exactly to my liking. I have exactly a little more than 2 days to make the decision.

This is so hard. I don't want to make wrong decisions that would cause me to regret later.

2009-01-12T23:38:00.004+08:00

"Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ."

Ephesians 5:20

I trembled when I started to tear open at the dotted folds of my results slip. My dream never came true, and I was thankful for that. I doubt I'll ever get into my dream school either, but I know it'd be the will of my almighty Father. But what comes next, I'll find out soon enough. Until then, I'm leaving it all in His one and only loving hands.

My shepherd and strength, He knows the best for me.

I just need to trust.

2009-01-07T15:32:00.011+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH ELYN(6th) & DAPH(8th)!!
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Strawberry Crumble specially made by Cheryl & Jas! The jam was super sweet but otherwise I thought it was delicious!

Look our shadows are on the sky! :D

I hope you guys had a fantastic time! Although I've only known you both for 2 years, I really do hope that we'll keep in touch for many more years ahead, and to treasure this awesome friendship that we already have. God bless you both! & I love you guys to the maxxx. ♥

2009-01-03T02:54:00.016+08:00

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes

You'll come back when they call you
No need to say good bye
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Zech's leaving in like 7 hours ah it's really fast! You just came back and now you're off again! :( I'm really sorry I won't be seeing you off to Canada, my body clock would just not make it, considering I would have to be at the airport in approximately 4 hours time? But of course I just wanna wish you a safe flight there, and that you'll have all the energy you need for school on Monday!

I'm thankful that we all got to spend time with you, being able to catch up and all. Hopefully you won't shoot up so much and make me feel shorter than I already am hehehehhehe. Kidding! Will miss you Beeeef see you real soon k(a few months?)! God bless you much!:)

2009-01-01T14:50:00.005+08:00

To One and All:

A very Blessed and Happy New Year!

Supper - or breakfast - this morning after Watchnight Service was at Serene Centre. Thank God we got there early, since I think Life BP took up like most of the seats at Macs heheheh. I left at around 2 plus which was a downer since I wanted to stay longer, but I guess there'll always be more opportunities later on in the year.

2009 has been so far so good for me. Hope it's the same for you.

2008-12-31T14:45:00.009+08:00

(Bolded parts are the significant parts I felt of this song. Bottom line? The whole song is significant.)

I bow on my knees before Him; I come to the Lord in prayer.
Convinced of His love and mercy, I bring my every care.
I pour out my heart before Him who knows my deepest fear.
In pity His arms surround me; He wipes away each tear.

God hears my prayer when I come to Him in my darkest hour;
God hears my prayer when I bring to Him my need.
He'll lift me up, and He'll give me grace in trouble.
God hears my prayer; He will surely answer me.

In humble submission falling, confessing my straying heart,
I run to my waiting Father; forgiveness He'll impart.
My heart thrills with adoration; His glory fills my sight,
Amazed that my God would love me, in me He would delight.

God hears my prayer when I come to Him in my darkest hour;
God hears my prayer when I bring to Him my need.
He'll lift me up, and He'll give me grace in trouble.
God hears my prayer; He will surely answer me.

What more do you need for a New Year when you know what an amazing wonderful merciful gracious and loving Heavenly Father you have is always by your side despite whatever that befalls you?

All thanks to God for the past year, and although I know 2009 will carry with it many many frightening impediments, I am very much strengthened and encouraged that the Lord will see me through it all, for there hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

2008-12-31T01:01:00.013+08:00

About 23 more hours until I have a new greeting! Ahahah. So what's up recently? I'll kick off with yesterday.

I woke up in the afternoon, only to find myself in a jifftiff phone call with my parents. Shocker. At least I'm done ranting over sms with Tammie who, I know will always hear me out thanks girl. I popped by school to collect my testimonial which unfortunately was still not done yet! Wasted trip, but I got to see several of the teachers! Lailing and I dropped by Island Creamery afters for a long waited girl talk and it was refreshing considering the fact that we've been missing out on each other's lives for a while. Anyhow 30th Dec was a catch up day at T's house with T, L & C. Missed those girls pretty much. THERE'S THIS NEW & COOL GAME ON http://bigfishgames.com/ CALLED ADVENTURE CHRONICLES: THE SEARCH FOR LOST TREASURE; its so addictive and amazing everybody go play it!! Hahhahaha. Tammie intro-ed it and we couldn't stop playing it until the lousy 60 minute timer went off! Ain't it stingy or what? We're so having that stayover next year I'm making sure of that okay?

29th Dec was BBQ at Huixian's since the SundaySchoolOuting was postponed. I love her house its Frisbee space material - awesome. I ate 4 chicken wings, 1 hotdog, 1 beef slice, 1 slice of choc cake and a can of Pepsi. I think it was enough to maintain my energy for ~~the soccer game thing~~Foosball at Hx's. That thing was seriously fun I think I'm getting good at it hehehehe!

Later on this afternoon will be Bedtime Stories and Shopping♥ with my bro yay so exciting I can't wait! Next year in January will just be as fantastic and brilliant as my December was. Already plans are being made and confirmed. :) Alrrrrrright here are some snippets!

After caroling at the block party!

LOOK THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I CLIMBED A TREE HEHEHEHEHHEE IT TOOK ME AGES TO GET UP THERE BUT I MADE IT YEAHHH.
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~~THE SOCCER GAME THING~~FOOSBALL. ~~Is there a proper name for it?~~

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That's Mount Everest above a flower bed with loads of sweets littering the sides of it. Oh and a huge caption saying "YF 2008". What a masterpiece eh?

The YF Campers!

View from the fifth story of the new Beulah House!

Groupings!

Queens. :D

Queens! Our heads anyways.

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The LTF Campers. :)
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2008-12-28T22:19:00.007+08:00

Okay so it's like 4 more days until the New Year. I've been counting down and I've been trying to save every minute I can, spending it in a good way, or rather, as long as I don't waste it! I just want my year to end off really well. Who doesn't? So I've decided to stay at home tmr, hoping my eye will get better soon. It still hurts everytime I blink, it's becoming an annoyance. :( Maybe it's time to revisit Dr. Sim?

Pulai Springs wasn't exactly what I hoped it'd be. We had 2 suites and a normal room for all 4 families. Not that the accommodation was awful or anything, but I think it was prolly just the inconvenience? My parents and I shared the normal room which was v v v far away from the other 2 suites. So being the lazy me I avoided joining the others for Bridge and Dai Di(not that I was interested in 3 straight hours of card games anyway).

Yesterday, some of us took a 2 hour travel down to Desaru to visit the Fruit Farm and the Ostrich Farm! Uhh it was my 3rd time there so it wasn't exciting or anything. It was either that or stone my hours away at the hotel.. so obviously I picked the former. Oh but I fed the Ostriches! Which was my first time! They're really gentle creatures. Their beaks(are their mouths called that?) aren't sharp so it's just like using the fingers of one hand to pick stuff out of the other. :)

Today was actually disappointing! I terribly wanted to shop. Except when we were finally at Jusco and Tebrau City, the stuff there were not me so.. :(

Just something from my QT ystd:

“But Jesus knows the way out. He says in His sweet undertone, “Fear not! Only believe.” He has the keys of death. He never would have let things come to this awful pass by His delay unless He had known that, even if the worse came to the worst, all would end well. He has purposely delayed till this, that He might have the better opportunity of showing you what God can do. Fear not! The hand of the Almighty Saviour has yours within its grasp. He will not let you stumble as you go down this dark staircase by His side. Only believe: have faith in Him. All may seem very mysterious now, but you will come to see that it was the wisest and best after all. You shall yet clasp to your heart the lost one, arrayed in resurrection beauty.”

2008-12-26T15:31:00.004+08:00

Blessed and Merry Christmas Everyone!

(I know I'm one day late, thanks to my laziness it's pretty pathetic. :/)

6 more days until the end of December. It's so fast it's too fast! But I really thank God for my December. It has truly been a wonderful and blessed month! The 2nd and 3rd week were spent at LTF and YF camps respectively, me trying to get my walk with God right again. That's half of my December with the Lord, which I honestly have no regrets since I really needed the spiritual refreshment. I'm still in the process of finding the right path, I can't say how difficult it was and still is, but the camps were somewhat a bridge over many obstacles. So many thanks and praises to God.

The Saturday(20th) immediately after YF camp was caroling. Pretty much the same as last year, except I think we really need to improve on the singing? Monday(22nd) it was cycling at EastCoastPark - again - but this time with Ernest, Hannah, Shannen, Ashley & Zech. My butt didn't hurt! I am srsly getting used to this!! :D After cabbing to Ernest's place to bathe we cabbed down to CCK where we carolled for a Christmas block party Huixian's school organised. Dinner was at Lot1, which included a mini shopping spree. :D

Tuesday(23rd) was YesMan with Elyn & Daph ah I missed them! It was like almost a month since I last saw them. I think this was the longest duration in 2008 that we didn't meet up. :/ Visited Dr. Sim about my sore eye. :( I hope it heals ASAP! Ashley came later that night for a stayover, & we baked Hannah's belated x100 birthday cake. :) It's pretty complicated how an October birthday celebration can be dragged until December.

Wednesday(24th) Ashley and I finally put Operation-Celebrate-Hannah's-Surprise-Birthday into action. Thank God it all went smoothly! Later Huixian came over and the 4 of us started to mass bake christmas choc-chip cookies! I can't believe we still missed out so many people, although our Christmas list consisted of 80++ people! I loved the warm and joyful atmosphere after Christmas Eve Service that night when everyone was giving out their Christmas presents. :) Thank you to everyone who gave me gifts, they're really sweet(I mean literally too).

I shall be off to Pulai Springs in a couple of hours and I shan't be back until the 28th! My bag's still unpacked and empty heheheh. It's really funny how Elyn and Daph are leaving today to Malaysia too! :) Hope you guys will have safe trips, see you two soon back in S'pore. :) Monday(29th) will be another exciting SundaySchoolOuting I think? :)

2008-12-09T09:52:00.010+08:00

{7thDec08 - Sunday}

StandChart Marathon '08 Volunteers Baggage Crew
Segment B: [24plus14].GROUPIE :D

Bags bags bags!

Poor Kevin.

MUD MUD MUDDD!

StandChart Marathon was heaps of fun this year! I never knew volunteering for Baggage Crew could be have this amount of excitement. So my mom dropped Jocelyn and I off at the Padang at 12:30am. That, I must say, was v v v early considering we only had to be there by 2:30am! Anyway, we trudged off towards the volunteer tent, only to find out that they opened registrations at 2. So we walked over to Swissotel hoping to find things to amuse ourselves with.

We got lost after collecting our shirts and volunteer bag packs! It was super embarrassing and weird cuz we kept sauntering aimlessly as we had no idea where to report. :O Finally we had the sense to ask one of the ICs (heheheheh). Our group was called [24plus14].GROUPIE. hahaha! Initially we had to get into groups of 40 but somehow the numbers were odd so it was 24 people, later with an additional 14. So hence the name. :D J and I were the counter people, which obviously had its profound pros and cons.

Pros: We had chairs, thus sparring our legs from a 12 hour stand. Plus we could save ourselves from running up and down the shelves to deposit/collect the baggage. :D

Cons: M U D D Y.

Omg yes that is like the only word to describe it. Before the runners started coming in, my feet were already brown. Srsly. There were no planks or boards or whatever to protect us from the disgusting mud. And then we had the sinking tables and chairs problem. Our counter tables and the chairs we sat on were literally sinking into the mud. Not that it was much trouble but thankfully we got used to it. Then the runners started coming in. At first, in drifts, later in waves. Subsequently, it became milder but they never stop coming!! Gosh was it tiring or what. I felt like a robot at one point. I smile and say, "Hi, good morning!"/"Next please!", take baggage, put in plastic bag, seal, pass it to the back, repeat.

Anyhow, the whole experience was pretty awesome - except the mudbath - I might think of joining baggage crew again in the future if I get the chance!

Yesterday, my entire family (that includes cousins/aunties/uncles/grandma) went to East Coast Park for.. family time? Cycled for 2 hours. My butt hurt, again. Dang I srsly gotta cycle more you know? Get used to it! Omg and then more fun poured in after that. We rented the Swaveboard, and guess what it was truckloads of fun! I never thought I would ever get on a Skateboard, but a Swaveboard?! Cool stuff. =D

Alright so I'll be away from the 9th - 13th Dec! Ltf camp here I come.

2008-12-04T20:49:00.005+08:00

Went over to Daph's house yesterday. I think you could call it desperation. That yearn to walk out of the house and through those green doors. The day was supposed to be dedicated to a horror-movie-marathon. In the end we - no I, watched Mirrors! Yeah the one with the lady ripping out her jaw. Okay I'll give some credit to Daph, she watched 15 minutes of it. At the beginning I tried to focus on eating my Hokkien mee, totally freaking out when the movie started, but I guess later on I got used to it. :) I thought the show had an interesting plot though.

We played Uno and I watched Blood and Chocolate (she watched 2 minutes), during which she slept. Dinner was at Hans - grilled fish fillet - with my parents, and then we visited my grandma at TanTockSeng. I never really knew my grandma (dad's side). I think there was a communication barrier. She'd ask me something in Cantonese and I would nod my head with a smile, not knowing what she had asked. Not that I totally have no understanding in the dialect, but sometimes her questions were.. difficult. :S Well she's been in and out of hospital several times now, and I wonder if our relationship will continue to stay that way. But I can't do anything about it, can I?

Well here's some good news! Firstly, tomorrow's Ryan's (nephew) 1st birthday! He can walk a bit now, plus he's still chubby. Secondly, my brother's coming back tomorrow afternoon too, after 24 days wow. Gosh I miss him. He bought me another Adidas jacket. Why does it feel like that's becoming a tradition? Third and finally, I've completed Heroes Season 3 Episode 4. That episode like frigging cost me 3 hours, when it is only 40 minutes!! Lousy links with slow downloads!
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My mini countdown:
#002 days 02hrs:18mins:40secs until Standard Chartered Marathon (heehee yeah I ripped it off the website)
#5 days until LTF camp
#22 days until C H R I S T M A S omg I'm so excited aren't you??! :)

2008-12-02T20:28:00.008+08:00

I'm suffering from boredom. I think I've watched every worth-watching movie there is online alr, and I'm running outta movies!! Someone save me. For what's worth, I've completed Heroes seasons 1 & 2!! So prouda myself. :D Anyway after all those hours of gluing my eyes onto the computer screen, I've found my favourite Heroes character. Well he's none other then..

Peter Petrelli! ♥

Well some of you might be surprised, considering how most Heroes fans just adore Hiro Nakamura (Masi Oka) and his cute antics. He seemed to be the one very much preferred, but not for me. Firstly, Peter Petrelli (portrayed by Milo Ventimiglia) has the most amazing power as compared to the other characters. Absorbing powers from others to me was.. cool. :D Definitely much more better since you are able to have multiple abilities at the same time. Secondly, he's undoubtedly good looking (to me). He has nice features. Finally, he's character is quite appealing. Sensitive, compassionate and pure in heart. Now how often can you find a man with such qualities huh?

No offense to Hiro Nakamura fans but, with each episode I watched, some of Hiro's actions kind of got a little irritating to me. Sometimes I thought that he did the wrong things at the wrong time. So that sort of messed things up more.

I felt Heroes was a brilliant series. I loved how the whole plot was unravelled and delivered. Awesome and addictive stuff really, now I just need to get a move on with Season 3.

I don't know if I should go for YF camp. Yes I guess I want to, I know it'd be good for my spiritual life and all, but there are some things that are holding me back and pulling me into a dreaded dilemma. All that put aside, I hate to say it but I'm supposed to be in Bangkok now enjoying a shopping spree but no here I am stuck in Singapore whilst everyone else is probably in some amazing part of the world capturing fantastic memories. I guess I just really want to get out of the country this holiday. Otherwise, I need to get out of my house to at least do something. Badminton tennis running netball captain's ball anything. I need my long forsaken adrenaline rush.

Anyhow, I anticipate that the rest of the week is just gna remain this mundane and very not exciting.

Oh yeah, did I mention? Last Friday on the 28th of Nov 2 v v v bored girls by the names of Ctas & Daph went to AMK Hub hoping to relieve their boredom. So they decided to watch a movie. What movie? Winx Club: The Secret of the Lost Kingdom. Please don't give me that look. What can I say, we were bored. Btw, watching the movie in a theatre full of kids wasn't exactly the best. It was in fact, embarrassing. Don't watch it srsly, unless of course, you are under the age of 10.

2008-11-28T12:03:00.004+08:00

{Stay over at Elyn's!}

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Aw shucks I can't go to Bangkok anymore. :(

2008-11-24T23:36:00.023+08:00

17112008, Monday

This was the scgs prom 2008. I think much of the food went to waste as everyone was more interested in taking pictures than eating. Hahah. I guess there isn't much to say, just a night to remember. It's a prom, I think you would know what happens during one huh? :) OH my feet nearly died wearing heels. :(

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18112008, Tuesday

And this was 4GR's class party. It was certainly better as compared to last year's. More people showed, and we ate together! Hah. We watched enchanted together & the usual dunking! 4GR is the ♥.

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1912008, Wednesday - 21112008, Friday

And finally this was chalet!!!!!! ♥

It was a blast I had so much fun. :D

Cycled on Wednesday till 11-ish pm. Our butts hurt after that. Okay maybe only mine. The rest had aches everywhere. But it was really great and Cheryl learnt how to cycle!! It was exhausting teaching her, but it was worth it! Aw man & the playground at Pasir Ris Park was the best!! I wanna go there t play on all the stuff again. :D I love the huge disk-wheel thing it was crazy. I slept at 1 plus. :( I couldn't take it anymore so I collapsed on the bed. :D Only the other crazy people went out at 3:30am to play Monopoly. -.-

On Thursday, we went t WildWildWet!! It was o-kay. The rides were not really fun except for the SlideUp, which was the plunging 4 story ramp. :D:D After that we headed back t the room t watch some DVDs & took pics(as seen from above:D).

& Finally on Friday morning, we woke up at 5am t watch the sunrise, only to realise that we walked in the wrong direction. :( However I thought the morning walk was kinda refreshing. :) After check out, Elyn & I went to watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua!! Everyone must go watch it! It's really good. :D 4 & a half stars from me! :D

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22112008, Saturday

I went for LTF. Hahahaahha yay me. Combined LTF & YF was fun! Learnt about working together with your brethren in Christ. :)

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23112008, Sunday - 24112008, Monday

Movie M a r a t h o n ! We conquered 10 episodes of Heroes Season 1, White Noise, Cinderella Story 2 & Pan's Labyrinth! :D

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So that was one crazy but awesome week. More to come, more to come. :)

2008-11-18T16:14:00.004+08:00

To every thing there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.

What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth?

I have seen the travil, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.

He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

I know that there is good in them, but for a man to rejoice, and to do good in his life.

And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God.

I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him.

That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past.

And moreover I saw under the sun the place of judgement, that wickedness was there; and the place of righteousness, that iniquity was there.

I said in mine heart, God shall judge the righteous and the wicked: for there is a time there for every purpose and for every work.

I said in mine heart concerning the estate of the sons of men, that God might manifest them, and that they might see that they themselves are beasts.

For that which befalleth the sons of men befalleth beasts; even one thing befalleth them: as the one dieth, so dieth the other; yea, they have all one breath; so that a man hath no preeminence above a beast: for all is vanity.

All go unto one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to dust again.

Who knoweth the spirit of man that goeth upward, and the spirit of man that goeth upward, and the spirit of the beast that goeth downward to the earth?

Wherefore I perceive that there is nothing better, than that a man should rejoice in his own works; for that is his portion: for who shall bring him to see what shall be after him?

2008-11-17T13:50:00.003+08:00

10 years.

I'll miss everything so so much.

5 hours till prom!

3 days of hardcore shopping better pay off!

2008-11-12T18:06:00.001+08:00

If I just breathe
Let it fill the space in between
I'll know everything is alright

2008-11-12T10:46:00.003+08:00

My brother is leaving in a couple of hours. On one hand, it's actually a relief. But on the other, I guess a part of me would miss him too. Hope you have a safe trip bro, & don't watch too much tv there. :)

The past 24 days went by in a swing.
Even so, I hadn't felt this way until today.
I never thought this could ever occur to me, well guess I was wrong.
Perhaps its God's will. Maybe He was trying to tell me smth.
Why did He let this happen? I'll never know.
What I really hoped for kinda crashed & fell into that dark hole.
I'm just v v v disappointed in myself,
but I'm gonna let it go now,
pretend it all never happened,
period.

2008-11-07T15:24:00.005+08:00

ONE MORE WEEK LEFT HAHA OMG IT ALREADY FEELS LIKE ITS ALL OVER! I KNOW I SAID I'D BE BACK ON THE 13TH BUT I'M TOO EXCITED I KEEP THINKING OF ALL THE ACTIVITIES THAT'S BEEN LAID OUT & WAITINGGGGGGG FOR ME. Like...

Prom!
Class party!
Chalet!
Zoo!
Night Safari!
Moviesssss!
Standchart '08!
Bangkok!
Cambodia...!(okay not exciting)
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Hahhahahaha I can't waittttttt! x1000
After Lit paper today(which I totally smoked my way through) we went t watch Quantum of Solace. I thought it was o k a y la it had a lot to do with Casino Royale(which I didn't watch-.-) so I pretty much didn't understand the whole plot... but who cares I watched a movie!! :D

<.edit: Saturday, 8th Nov>
This part had to be removed cuz E says she'll read it. But srsly E I highly doubt she'll read it, the last time she read my posts would have been.. a few lightyears ago. (My life is hanging on a dangerous thread right now as I'm editing this you better thank me!)
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So. I'm kinda mentally drained right now I promise after Os I'm gonna burn my books and do everything I had always wished to do!
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I want 9 points. Is that too much to ask?

2008-10-08T23:46:00.001+08:00

I'm Scared.

Really really scared.

2008-09-30T12:24:00.011+08:00

Official

H I A T U S

until 13th November 2008;

I'll be back. :)

{♥}

I just got this message from Ashley!

"Omg. Only 8 people came today then Shaf left so left 7 :/. 4GY got 11 even 4CO got 9 or 10 la. Our class wins! :D"

Haahahahahha 4GR made whooping history for class attendance today. :O

But we're all at home mugging very hard right! :)

"... For the joy of the LORD is your strength."

(Nehemiah 8:10)

2008-09-25T22:34:00.004+08:00

♥

"Be stong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them:

for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee:

he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee."

(Deuteronomy 31:6)

2008-09-25T00:34:00.003+08:00

Lord, as I seek Your guidance for the day,

I find my thoughts unyielding; confusion crowds my way.

But then when I bow to You, the challenges You guide me through;

Your promises are ever new, I claim them for today.

Your will cannot lead me

where Your grace will not keep me.

Your hand will protect me.

I rest in Your care.

Your eyes will watch over me,

Your love will forgive me.

And when I am faltering,

I still will find You there.

2008-09-16T17:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16TH JOCELYN TNG! :D

Hurhur & I know you like that picture of you up there. :D

Yay I hope you had fun & I know you were surprised!!

♥

& of course I'm not forgetting;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! :D

Nah cannot mention her age. :D

♥

2008-09-12T20:26:00.002+08:00

Brain drain brain drain Brain Drain!

Yeesh even the words I'm typing look funny to me now. Like some ancient language. Anyway Emath mock paper 2 was today & it was totally.. draining. Hahha yeah that's the only word I can think of right now. Aw but I'm quite disappointed with it! I know I can't get my 85% now!! :( & JY was totally demoralizing. Afterwards at study camp she was all grumpy and complaining how "Now the max marks I can get is 98(/100) because I used the wrong formula for one part!!" JY please just go away you're hurting my feelings. But according to MissL we all should be getting 90% cause the mock paper we took was last year's Emath Os paper.

MrsL returned Amath mock paper 2 and okay I was pretty happy about it as it was definitely a leap of improvement (as compared to prelims of course)! But nonetheless, I'm still aiming for my A1. :)

Hahhaha my brother just said this, "You're finally back home before nine." Whuuuut there's study camp everyday not my fault.

Anyway tonight I'm going to watch TV & I don't care because I'm dedicating tomorrow's 9:45am to 6pm as study time wit ET & Jocelyn. :D

After mock paper this afternoon Elyn & I just sat at the pink swing & talked for 2 & a half hours. Hahah it felt good to talk & just relax. We more or less figured we were gonna miss SC terribly come this November. Oh but something we wanna do, something to motivate us; and that is after Os we're gonna go Bungee jumping. :D

& to end off, this has been playing in my head for some time already:

All I ever want to be is what You want of me, Lord;

I give my life to You.

And all my hopes and dreams and plans

I place within You hands, Lord,

and give my life to You.

Here am I, Lord, use me;

take my life and mold me.

All I ever want to be is what You want of me, Lord;

I give my life to You.

And all my hopes and dreams and plans

I place within Your hands, Lord,

and give my life to You.

Today is a winding road, that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go.

2008-09-04T20:40:00.003+08:00

This week is math week. I only did Amath & Emath. Shucks. :(
Next week I have Amath & Emath mock exams. Shucks. :(

Today I found out that MadJack's was actually quite a conducive place t study at. :)
And today I'm quite happy with what I collected. It's a surprise. Hehehhee. :)

2008-09-02T19:46:00.009+08:00

Officiallllllll update! The pictures shall speak yeah alright let's get this started.

#1 HONOURS DAY;

{28thAugust2008}

No comments except that it was seriously boring - a yearly tradition.

#2 ACES DAY/TEACHERS' DAY;

{29thAugust2008}

The teachers dancingggg! Hahhaaha.

Superman Exhibit number 4!!

The Tour guide wave. Hahahahhah.

This was study camp. Yes see that chem book - we were studying I promise.

I loved the Teachers Day Celebration after school! It was dead hilarious as always! All the teachers who danced for us kept us in laughter! :) & for ACES Day 4GR decided to wear class tee + ties + shorts + high coloured socks + shower caps...!! It was the most unglam thing ever infront of the whole school but it was really fun considering it's the last year! We had Bollywood dancing as the theme for this year! Funnnnfunfun!

#3 NIKE HUMAN RACE;♥

{31stAugust2008}

The Hosts:)

BOYS LIKE GIRLS! Aw man they were the best best of the best! They sounded really really good live & they just sang all my favourites yay love 'em to the max. :)

:D

DJ Inquisitive. Uhm yeah. Well okay he was good I guess but only people who preferred his style thing would enjoy this. Heh.

Oh Jack & Rai were two guys who came on earlier as well! And they sounded almost as good as BLG. Sadly we could only hear them from our station while opening like hundreds of 100plus. :/

Right so by the end of the day I gained muscle ache from at least 5 parts of my body yesssh. Mostly from my arms. Giving out canned drinks is certainly more exhuasting than pouring water. Along with the ache I gained cuts all over my fingers from opening the 100plus. :(

Nevertheless I had a terrific time I can't wait for next year's Nike Run! :D

So that was 3 eventful days covered! :):)

tagggg replies:

ELYN: ACES Day, HonoursDay and Nike Human Race picturessss are all up; omg and im so sry i pangsehed you for amath i dont know why i kept falling asleep :/

--> yup got them! yeah la you ps me! nvm I independently studied by myself today:D oh warningggg, no blackmailling! or, "all the unglam photos of elyn". :)

Joella: Hi!(:

--> hahaha hiii. :)

2008-08-31T23:39:00.005+08:00

Just 3 words for today:

Extremely,

Fantastically,

Awesome.

♥

2008-08-16T22:09:00.003+08:00

Hey there Miss JigzawPuzzle, I’m here to tell you that trying is really important. Trying is one of the main keys to your personal goal, that goal you really want. I’m just hoping that my words to you won’t go wasted, that you’ll take them to heart, especially those that apply to you. Miss JZ I’ve got your back. I’m willing to push & spur you on as long as you are willing to try yourself. Don’t give up now. It’s not over yet, and you know that. You know you can, it’s all there in your head. You just need to try. I’ll put that pretty frame up as soon as you piece yourself together. You know what I mean.
♥

2008-08-12T20:47:00.004+08:00

Today did not go as I had wished it would. Not one bit. I didn't enjoy any of it. It made me more frustrated with every minute that ticked by. God willing that nothing of today's events would occur tomorrow. I hope. I really really hope. Because I don't think I could go through another similar ordeal. Because today was just more than enough for me already.

§§§

Couldn't you trust me more? Couldn't you have a little more faith in me? Couldn't you make the effort, to understand? To care? I hope things will change from the way they are now.

2008-08-10T16:53:00.004+08:00

Hiiiiiii yes I'm back prelims are officially overrr & I'm still mentally drained! I'm giving myself a 4 day break (starting last fri), so tmr's the last day and I'm gonna enjoy it while I can! :D So where shall I start? The good news or the bad? Ok I'll start with the good!:D

Good news!:
- I went out last week yayyy finally! And yeah it felt really good to enter a shopping centre & a cinema without feeling guilty or anything! It felt like last year and those old timesss.
- Basically it was a short movie marathon..? 3 movies in 2 days: The Mummy(not bad, 3&half stars), Journey to the Center of the Earth(really boring, 2stars) & The X-Files(alright, 4stars!).
- Stayover at Elyn's(thurs night)! Watched The Prestige(super awesome, 5stars. I can't believe I never watched it before).
- And for tmr, it's another movie marathon at Daph's, I think we're watching Meet Dave plus otherssss.

Hahhahaha okay yeah I know I'm spending all my time watching movies heh but I really miss watching movies! :D:D (shutup you'll feel this way when you're Sec4)

Okay then, Bad news!:
- I have schoooool tmr(yes on a public holiday)! And why? Because of the English O-level orals. :( Boo. :(
- My phone decided to crash on me last Wednesday. :( There goes my contacts. & my messages. & my saved data! >:/
- I was late for school.. last last thursday? & I got booked. >:/ Plus something else came along with it! >:/

Now for shoutouts!:
1. Happy happy 15th Birthday to Huixian & TabLee! (5 August)
2. Happy happy sweet 16 to Lailing! ♥♥♥ (7 August)

~~~

Just smth random: For the past 3 weeks its like school's my 2nd home. Nah in fact it's almost like my first. Considering the fact that I spend more time in school than at home. Since I only go home at 9-10pm to sleep & make my way back down to school before the break of dawn. Life's like that. :/

Oh I've got a tonne of pictures to upload. Hahahahahah. Okay yeah but I'm really too lazy to upload them.. when I have the time when I have the time! :)

2008-08-01T21:02:00.005+08:00

I got through this week! I'm just here to say that I'm still okay and I've not fallen yet! :) Well it has really been an exhausting week, but very, very extremely productive one altogether.. so I'm quite happy about it. :) I hope I can keep this up alllllll the way to Os! I've still got undone notes yeah so I'm gonna do them soon.

Deadline: tonight!

One more week to go and I'll be a free kid. :D This has been my motivational song! Here's Rascal Flatts with Stand. :)

Cause when push comes to shove

You taste what you're made of

You might bend, till you break

Cause its all you can take

On your knees you look up

Decide you've had enough

You get mad, you get strong

Wipe your hands shake it off

Then you Stand

♥

2008-07-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

That feeling’s back. :(

2008-07-16T21:26:00.028+08:00

I was just remembering about the things that happened this year. & I never really got to talk about them. I never really got to upload these as I ~~was lazy~~didn’t really have the time. But well I took exactly 3 and a half days t compile them! I really really must learn to treasure whatever the time I have left in SC. We paint our own memories and we live to reminisce about them.

Oh uh pardon the messiness as they're not really placed in order! :/ So bear with me!

{Sports Day '08!}

Uh please don't ask me what we were doing I think we must have been high then. :D

{PE!}

Eh who's that person jumping up & down like a monkey?! :O

Hello bestfriends in class. ♥

Jocelyn's power-shot :D

{4GR's Chinese class}

A1 Chinese FTW!

{Racial Harmony Day '08}

Whose arm so pretty? :D

"When you think something, you think in picture. You don't think a thought in words. You think a picture that expresses your thought. Working with this picture will produce it into your experience."

♥♥♥

2008-07-13T21:38:00.003+08:00

What will become of tomorrow?
I'm so worried.
Lord,
Help me to rely on You.
Help me to trust You.
Help me to cast all my burdens on You.
may You be my pillar of strength that I need so much right now.

--
I thought going to you would comfort or encourage me at the least. I thought I could really use some support from you right now. Because in less than 17 hours it would be over. But I guess it was a mistake after all.

2008-07-10T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hi my sentence is officially over! :D Here's the short update:

- bought our Saris today! Mine's green, naturally. :D Can't wait for Racial Harmony Day. :):)
- brother's checkup today; I think it was alright - but the scan results will be out next week! :/
- Jieqi's a bad photographer!! She takes 320974329058 unglam pics of everyone.
- I did not study this week at all. Ugh.
- its 18 days until the prelims. What have I been doing with my life?!

2008-07-03T21:50:00.003+08:00

Someone shoot me now I just wasted another day and did not touch a single textbook today! >:/

So after school it was SushiTei + Starbucks at HollandV with ET and Serene! We were supposed to study at Starbucks after SushiTei buuuut we talked & talked until we lost track of time. By the time I got my Choc Blended Frappuccino it was time for A-math tuition. :O

Yuck I hate my self discipline it's like negative now. I'm gonna punish myself for being so lazy & ill disciplined! So I'm sentencing myself to be grounded from the computer for one week! Unless of course if its needed to do school work or smth.

SO, if you're my friend and you see me online or catch me red-handed using the computer unnecessarily, please do smth like scold me or pull my ear the next time you see me or nag or whatever you think is fit okay thanks I’d appreciate it.

Anyway here's one of my all time fav! It's Michael Bublé with Everything!

Anddd lastly here's to my brother(I know you read my blog!): Have faith in God o-kay don't worry too much mom thinks you're worried maybe I think so too but anyhow, just pray hard and trust God really. Whatever the outcome is it's His decision and we'll accept it yes? I'd love to accompany you for your checkup buuut I have school boohoo so I can't. :( ok I'll pray hard for you too. :D

Alright bye I’m not supposed to be here again until another week’s time.

2008-07-02T19:04:00.003+08:00

Warning: Long & wordy post ahead. I'm here to rant and talk nonsense and whine and just jabber so read only if you're extremely bored! :D

Yessss I know I'm supposed to be doing my last geog evaluative essay but I came home to find myself eating Ben&Jerry's and now I'm here typing away aimlessly. :/ As you can see my discipline level just dropped! Not a good sign. :(

School's been the same without much happenings and basically I'm missing the dance concert so I can study and study and.. I'm not going to the dance concert. :(:(

It's my last year and I'm supposed to make memories according to MrsQ but nooooo my life just revolves around the textbooks for now.

PLUS I'll be missing the netball carnival in which I've been looking forward to ALL year but boohoo it's two days before the start of prelims argh so I can't play afterall!! :(:(:(

Okay so the four of us have decided to go for prom! Yayyy! :D I think I'll have so much difficulty in finding a suitable outfit and I don't think I've ever put on make up since kindergarten heehhee so I suppose I'll have Daph to step in on that part. Well prom's pretty far away so lets talk about smth nearer!

Like.. racial harmony day! I think its like in a couple of weeks and yes we've decided to wear traditional costumes this year as part of the whole 'its our last year in scgs' thing!

So we came to the agreement that Indian traditional Saris were the ideal costume for racial harmony this year. :) Its pretty exciting huh I've never worn other cultural costumes except in Primary school when Chinese Cheong Sums were worn every year. :(

And for today, we had an A-math mock test after school which I am so sure that at least half of the cohort is going to faillll terribly (that includes me). But really, A-math is killing me at the moment, I felt like giving up so many times and it is like a whole blur to me right now. Unless some person miraculously appears in front of me who is so so patient as to teach me A-math from the start, I think I'll just be dropping down that line. :O

Some invisible mosquito is biting me but I can't find it! >:/ I have itchy bites now!! :(

To end this pointless post on a brighter note, my rashes are gone! Yippe! Thank God. I've been pushing my will and determination to the limit in not scratching at all. :D

2008-06-27T20:42:00.002+08:00

Look I've got photos for today!:

Hx just sent these to me. She took them when she went to Austria. Heeheehe.